Surviving Traumatic Brain Injury: One LGBT Woman’s Story

Amberlee Nicole Rasp​ | Survivor and Woman of God 📨ℹ

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This story was written by Amberlee Nicole, the niece of Assuaged Founders Thane and Cynthia Murphy.

I am proud to say I am a blessed survivor from a traumatic brain injury I received on May 11, 2017. This is the day I went into a deep sleep coma. It also happened to be my father’s birthday. When I woke up and realized this, it absolutely broke my heart how much happened in what seemed such little time. Twenty minutes before I was going over my father’s house to celebrate with him, I was in a dark, sad place. I was going through mental trials involving relationship jealousies over something I never should have given into.

At the time, I was not at peace with my girlfriend, we are both LGBT women. We were thirty seconds to our home, and I screamed out to stop and let me walk home. I needed to cool off and time to think. My girlfriend added to my anger by not allowing me to get out of the vehicle. One thing led to another. I impulsively jumped out of the car, ignoring reality. I was consumed by strong emotions, and I was running so high in them that I failed to pay attention to how fast my girlfriend was driving. I never fathomed what was going to happen next.

Amberlee Nicole before her accident 2017

I don’t remember much because of the positioning where my eleven fractures and brain bleeds occurred. After tumbling on my head eleven times, there was significant damage caused. I endured multiple surgeries, a tracheotomy, and a feeding tube. Two months after being in a deep sleep coma, I unexpectedly woke up. When I woke, I had forgotten the past two years of my life. I didn’t remember anything. Not even my own address.

During my deep sleep coma after sustaining a traumatic brain injury, I stopped breathing multiple times. The only thing I remembered when I woke up was that I saw and met with God. The floors were shiny gold, and we were surrounded by pure white clouds. The lord was right in front of me, and he asked me, “would you like to go to stay here or go back to earth?” I immediately answered crying out “please send me back to earth, I miss my family and friends!” and that’s the last time I saw our creator!

The doctors definitely worked their best on me, and many prayed for me. I believe that God placed specialized doctors on my case and saved my life. I wasn’t supposed to survive my traumatic brain injury, and if I did, half of my body was supposed to be paralyzed. Part of my skull was taken out of my head because I had so many fractures and brain bleeds.

I had to wear a silly hat for three long, challenging months keeping my traumatic brain injury safely contained. I was also placed in a wheelchair for quite some time. I had to learn how to walk and talk again.

I’ve been through some of the worse pain anyone could feel. Ironically I have a scar in the shape of a cross caused by the tracheotomy. This scar is located at the center of my neck. One thing for sure is that when I woke up, I was positive, optimistic, and joyful. I felt this lightness in the air. I felt like a brand new person.

I am stronger, happier, and smarter than ever. Every day I feel blessed, and now I wake up with a smile on my face. I haven’t self-harmed myself since before my accident, and now I do my best to help others. My heart feels for all who are out there going through pain. I advise that you just maintain strong faith in the unseen, and in the impossible. Don’t be scared or dismissive. I am a strong survivor with no doubts or fear of where I’m going after my death because I am saved.

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